SUGAR DADDY BECOMING TOXIC

 

SUGAR IS BAD FOR YOU

my dad was neither sweet nor harsh

but he was mostly sour

unhappy 

with the roll of dice

though not a gambler

i have been happy with 

what i was  dealt 

in bridge games

and bridges on the route

though i like sour

tasting it as a Ko 

in games of Go

the more fun 

the more ko

the less sense

the more taste

my family and other

subjects of Gerald Durrell

see me as bitter 

mistaking their senses

and words

due to 

a different

underappreciated sour

I still walk on the path

despite the muscle and joint pain

despite the hurdles 

i sense only as nightmares

epics of adventures

and

familiar 

and unknown

people in epics

that I visit

and observe

and introduce

with or without

a flourish

to 

the crowd of protesters

i attract

and distract

ahmet cafer celebiler

March31, 2025

COSMIC NIDUS

 

NESTS AND SEEDS

Was it propogation?

or osmosis

or magic

huge number of

miniscule seeds

or eggs

were launched 

from a universe

flowing on cosmic currents

to reach the planet earth 

in the milky way galaxy

and possibly many other planets 

in many other galaxies

and universes

this particular 

clump

like that of a pinworm

colony

had to go through clouds of radiation

extremes of heat and cold

in space

which may have been 

a digestive tract of sorts

exposure was mutational

birth and mother's desertions

were traumatic

the result was a species subject

to other infestations and traumas

with instincts destructive 

or confused 

between survival and destruction

of self as self

and others

as other selves

all called

humanity

falsely calling 

the study of their art and endeavors

as humanities 

meaning that all their traumas

and diseases

and greed

and lack of cognition

and of logic

were achievements

applauding themselves

as forefathers of

space pioneers

due to misconstrued

ancestral memories

ahmet cafer celebiler

March 30, 2025

STRENGTH IN NUMBERS

 

NUMERICAL PROXIMITY

numbers one handles

can be a sign of intelligence

or power

authority

or wisdom

populations national

or

members familial

sometimes

non-denominational

at times sectarian

otherwise

dissident agnostic

to be ignored

to be falsified

to be incarcerated

in harsh reality

or harsher visions

ahmet cafer celebiler

March 29, 2025

SOCIAL MEDIA HASHSHASHIN

 

THE SICARII VS HASSHASSHIN VS MEDIA TROLLS

belief

and personal philosophy

religion

or

other types 

of 

discrimination

are not

anarchy

yet

a breeding pasture

like the golden age of assassinations

before 

global wars

This era or century

or cosmic period

renewed by

character defamation

an incurable

disease

of slander and libel

replacing 

and

fulfilling

the duties

of gossip groups

not meeting

in caffees or homes

not meeting at all

powerful never the less

more powerfull

when faceless

when 

playing upon fears

and

despair

hunger

poverty

discrimantion

 real and imaginary

replacing

hopes

with 

violence

and 

pursuits

divorced from happiness

Locusta serves again 

not for emperors

but for all

leaders and more

in fields

of politics

and family

and media

and commerce

appearing

out of nether regions

as drooling 

untaxed professionals

with pay

ahmet cafer celebiler

March 21, 2025

THINGS IN BOXES

 

BOXED LIVES

precious things crave boxes

precious humans 

not craving

but

duly fenced

with stakes 

and chains

or wire

and

tarps to keep them dry

while their eyes 

and noses

and throats

drip 

droplets

to smear and rust

all boxes 

chains

wire

on dry days

look for a key

or a locksmith

one 

imbued with magic

and love

loving care

caring love

until the last stop

la derniere station

where

nobody greets 

arrivers

anymore

at lasnaja Pojalva

Ahmet cafer celebiler

March 19, 2025

ACCESSORIES NOT INCLUDED

 

PRICE OF A BABY

an infant

on display

in minds

and dreams 

placed subliminally

purchased

over the counter

or under

comes with no accessories

or parts

needed for proper

care 

and functioning

not even a legible manual

with diagrams

names and numbers

and arrows 

but two dimensional 

and

emotional

instructions

for a

multi-dimentional bundle

and

the art

of maintenance

and upkeep

may not be available

at galleries

or museums 

and eroded

or calloused organs

that

could not

read

manuals

or understand recipes

which require

forks to be picked with left hand

and knives

with the right

and

a napkin

placed just so

ahmet cafer celebiler

March 3, 2025

NO JOY FOR OLD MEN

 

LIFE FOR THE AGED

bless the octogenerian

who has got his own

children may have

grand children may show

spouse may hear

own choices

own views

own visions

of the old

left in a desert

to bide away

time left

sun for the bones

wind for the mind

not a country

or time

for the old

but

 timeless

for mankind

dust and sand 

the whirling dervishes

visible to the old

faceless

soulless

merciless

telling the value

of the carcas

to the scavengers

related 

and

unrelated

bone pickers

to be fed

to escape the sun

and the sand 

for a while

till they are ready to 

to be picked 

for their age

and 

utility

and 

placed in the desert

with tears

that are swallowed by the sun

but nonetheless

with a place 

in the desert

 of life

and

of memory

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March 3, 2025

BACK TO THE DRAWING BOARD

 

REFRESHING THE PUZZLE    

puzzles need to be redrawn

and recut

according to 

contingencies

enemy deployment

and

the climate

of fantasy

and reality

usually no different 

from each other

and the sum total

of clouds of ignorance

and credibility

white and gray 

never totally black

depending

on

idea and faith

and sooth

saturation

pronounced

by the media

available for intervention

and purchase 

and accommodation

but with 

black spots

desiring

seldom reaching

goals 

imposed

and disposed

with ease

despite

the thought

and the humility

of the objects 

and the subjects

placed

to fit 

or misfit

visions of inquisition

of 

cloudy minds

and vois la

another

puzzle

with missing pieces

ahmet cafer celebiler

February 25, 2025

A NOTE OF THANKS

 

NOTE AND REQUEST

This is not a philosophical or literary entry.

You can tell by the use of capital letters.

It is mainly a "Thank you" note

To all the followers and readers of my blogs.

for keeping me young and alert in my eighty first year

of enjoying people, other living and inanimate things 

and all experiences

mine and those of others who appear in life and book pages and newspapers and films.

My request is that you write to me if you can and if you wish

at ahmetcelebiler@gmail.com  so that I can feel you are as real to me as to yourselves

at fifty or more countries worldwide, some of which I will never be able to visit.

And, if you ever have a chance of making it to istanbul in my remaining years, please call or stop by

so that I get to know you as you have known me. 

Ahmet

February 23, 2025

(one day before the critical football derby in snowy Istanbul, in last ditches of denying Global Warming and reminding me of very old memories of other snowy days which closed schools for the fun and excitement of Ahmet the Kid)

And if y

BLAME THE PHANTASMAGORIC CROUPIER

 

PARENTS MORE TO BE BLAMED THAN THE LORD 

asking for help

or praying for the right number 

or card

one enters the domain of Rudy

a friend of Buddy hacket

the comedian

blaming fortune

or kismet

is fine for him who is lost

and 

who has no parents

and

who has not been abused

by bullies

of classrooms

board rooms

and heart chambers

and brain portals

this requires study and thought

blaming a parent

or both

is easy

when 

you are the sole evidence

of wrongdoing

and

you have the scars

and

many witnesses

who are

partners in ignorance

and in the fun game 

of blame

whether 

a butler

or a chef

or a parent

who played the butler

and the chef

Instead

please

call buddy 

or rudy

to materialize

so that

you may befriend him

when depressed

so that

you may enjoy your own story

and 

never blame yourself

Ahmet cafer Celebiler

February 22,  2025

WHY IS CANDIDE?

 

PANGLOSS CUNEGONDE AND MARTIN

all esteemed people

eluding all

but a single thought

both cause and effect

scorned  

by an old woman

and

many a philosopher

and believer

took the wisdom of

making friends 

to other worlds

gentle

and 

susceptible

to needs 

rather than ideas

attached to Cunegonde

while himself

and

his story

denied the hereafter

just a lost soul

appearing 

sometimes

again

and again

years later

centuries later

as victim

to ignorance

that trumpets

with false glory 

and tramples

real

and imaginary

phenomena

thought

and

travelers in life

ahmet cafer celebiler

february 16, 2025

FAITH AND DIGNITY

FAITH ATTRACTION IN POLITICS

    

looking for

hoping for 

not seeing

yet believing in

miracles

that support

mission

vision

rule

law 

honorary school degrees

emeritus

by nature

and

definition

discovered

and rediscovered

though

not recollected

in 

kingdoms new

with reign

subject to wear and tear

and manias

and

phobias

illusions

and delusions

to rule

and

to misrule

lives

own and other

in empires defunct

and empires infant

all sizes

yet

always tight

fighting against

bursting

it seems

at seams

each eruption spewing

surplus

philosophy

and wisdom

to replace with new mag(m)a

from an endless supply

in the depths

burning with fear and greed

and self-image 

to be relentless

to be destroyed 

and rediscovered

by new applicants

or

supplicants

ahmet cafer celebiler

February 13, 2025

WELLS AND WELLNESS

 

HAPPY PLANTS HAPPY SELVES

there were two wells

in the fruit

 and cut flower

and vegetable garden

one was old

disregarded

feared

operated by a phantom horse

tethered to a rusty

ancient

iron wheel operated pump

which was connected

to two watering holes

and a moat 

around an island of taste 

meditation

and poetry

no gossip

but tea or coffee

viewing the sea

through leaves 

of the ball tree

a measure of being grown up

was the ability to jump acrossr the moat

disdaining 

either of two iron bridges

daring the multitude

of scorpions and spiders

at the waterless bottom

no more happy plants

but happy kids

and insects

and a sole poet

well forgotten

wellness

a hankering

a decrepit life

cut short

a bridge 

between two continents

imagined

and preserved

with ink and paper

and 

finally 

for us 

in print

and

vanishing memories

of giants

and genies

wolves and bulls

the second well

had a switch

stead of a horse.

fed vegetables

for wellness

and flowers

for beauty

for hobby and sale

poet's brother

a dervish

caring for larger family

austere

no laughter

yet

approving smile

sweet

as the candy

in cloak pockets

held ready

for the grandchildren

and

for my readers thoughts

ahmet cafer celebiler

February 12, 2025

PICKLED PURSLANE

 

SEARCHING PURSLANE LOVERS

soulmates

to appreciate

sparkling appetite

for pickles

weeds

also

for fusion

of exotic

and

exotic

and 

earthly local

to play sardines

to hide 

and appear

with splayed feet

edges frayed

toes 

bones

corns

that enjoy

bed sheets 

and comfort of comforters

cotton

        satin

at times

hands stroking

wishes 

memories

a knee crooked

no matter

a thigh

dreamt of

so many times

seen

and

appreciated

still cherished

sneaking out

of dreams

and sheets

comforting

watched

and watched

like those nights

like this night

with love

and

memories of desire

ahmet cafer celebiler

February 8, 2025

BITING YOUR OWN FEEDING HAND

 

BITING BUT NOT CHEWING

as one does

to

tongue

and cheek

unless

a dentist has been visited

or a naive

foreigner

or

an in-law's relative

is 

a political move

hiding

the pain

hiding the gain

or loss

of image

related

to the land of others

be they

islands

or strips 

or stretches of water

people

not known

not real

but foreign

like an alien

arriving on a saucer

or a magic carpet

no sense

to discern

ahmet celebiler

February 7, 2025

300 ODD CRAVATTES RECOLLECTED

 

SUITS AND TIES

live in memories

photographs

news 

dull

look alike 

lifeless

even the silken

or 

the super one or more hundreds

not remembering 

their rolled up days

or 

the pain of the scissors

memories of  hope 

hope for regard

discernment

poses for others

legs as so

hands unseen

even

when glancing 

from studded collars

gazing

and

being gazed

does the color of the tie 

and

the design

show

more than the length of the sock

when you were

what you wore

and each

had a meaning 

possibly

for you alone

ahmet cafer celebiler

February 6, 2025

APPARITIONS ARE ASSUMED

 

ZUHURAT (Turkish)

appearing out of the blue

unexpected passenger ferries

possibly hosting a fete of phantoms

they just emerged

in olden days

in Istanbul

unassumed

saviors

for those who had missed

a deadline

or a bread line

unassumingly

not hoping for a life line

waiting at a Bosporus jetty

i feel like one

at this age

an assumption 

soon to become an apparition

joining other phantoms

reserving a seat

at a fete

on a zuhurat ferry

holding court

to recite my poetry

to an applause

denied me before

ahmet cafer celebiler

February 2, 2025

PETER PRINCIPLE UPDATED

 

A PRINCIPLED PRINCIPLE

ubiquitus

hierarchic

always vulgar (to some)

patterns

have long life spans

in organizations

in families

in fiction

and non-fiction

one promotes

himself

or gets promoted

by 

an available authority

to levels

of incompetency.

a bundle of joy

a makes you proud

student 

or athlete

or artist

turns into

a genie

of no use

one who will not

or cannot

grant wishes

personal

familial

matrimonial

political

this is how things work

not due to intent

or accident

but

by

instinct

ahmet cafer celebiler

January 31,  2025

JUST A MISCHIEF

 

ANGULAR GYRUS SYNDROME

left from right

right to left

politics acrostic

faith agnostic

life authentic

ahmet cafer celebiler

January 30, 2025

PERSONAL BEHAVIORAL REFUTATION

 

CONTRADICTING CONFLICT

the brain

by way of 

its own way

or a highway

confronts itself

and contradicts 

come what may

refuting one's own

ideas

or spouse

or family

any such

authority

after age 25

or thirty

disputes Darwin

and

counselors

of marriage

and mentors

and such

though

the prefrontal cortex

may decline

or cease

out of malice

or dare

to predict

foretell

and 

even anticipate

reveling

in its new found 

freedom

to damage

plans

people

and 

worlds and lives

which exist

in our

great grain of sand

ahmet cafer celebiler

January 30. 2025

CAUSALITY VS CASUALTY

 

PERSONAL AND PUBLIC RHETORIC

AS WISDOM, PROPAGANDA  AND DRIVEL

casualty can be 

severely injured

with intent

by accident

in conversation

speech

and writing

and usually 

in thought

or lack of

as the case may be

in wilful

or 

hereditary

or

cultural

and even learned

ignorance

thus can it become

a casualty 

of

human interactions

imbued

with 

folly

and gaffe

unknowingly

perpetrated

over

and over again

in history

ancient

old

and new

and

in personality

in 

always uncivilized

civilizations

the only ones 

we can study

and discern

ahmet cafer celebiler

January29. 2025

LIFE EXTENDING PEEVES

 

IRRITATIONS

a figurine appeared

it was twilight

or dusk

but not dawn

as i recall

just a smidgeon

from a pole

or three

shading the street

when she spoke

with ceramic

or 

vielleicht

porcelain tones

true to her ancestry

and the shaded spot

on the street

one listened

and took heed

irritation is good

she said

as long as you have a balm

to salve

whether a wound

or a scratch

and 

the mind and the art

of an arthropod

boneless 

but with heart

and feelings

irritation

indicates life

mayhap

legs asplay

and thoughts astray

while

silently

feeding

 a pet or a peeve

ahmet cafer celebiler

January 25, 2025

STENTS AND STENTORS

 

HERALDS ON TENTERHOOKS

a soothsayer

a diviner

no less

for future emotions

for minerals

for water

for 

coronary games

like hide go seek

that do not appear

in tenter-fields

but are heralds 

of 

anticipatory

invasive

procedures

included in rule books

and annals 

of voyages of discovery

usually

pardoned

but sometimes

fatally overcome

by Hermes

ahmet cafer celebiler

January 25, 2025

THEOSOPHICAL VOLKSGEIST

PSYCHOLINGUISTIC GESTALT

we were one

if you remember

though many

on a tree

or 

in a design on a carpet

neology

was forbidden

we were told

but ears were blocked

and

eyes searched for more

and the mind gave up

language became linguistics

children

transformed

into anthropologists

phonemes

and graphemes

flooded the 

consciousness

then we were many

praying

and

hoping

for oneness

but with empathy

and harmony

and sympathy

the kinship of the gestalt

all identity lost in the air

and in the water

and in the sands

physical

emotional

and 

illusional

the reward 

or the punishment

whichever

ahmet cafer celebiler

January 22, 2025

CIRCA DIEM

 

DAILY STIMMING

time needs

mass and energy

or speed and distance

or all that

and possibly more

to qualify 

to run the race

to rule humans

and

the rhythms 

circadian

and other

also jet lag

and 

variety

multiples 

of stims

not social

not platonic

nor martial

even in music

atonal

versus clonic

if they actually mean

whatever they mean

and whenever

asleep

or awake

any day 

and any night

while the leg jerks

the eye winks

to give a message

or a series of messages

to self

and to visitors

human and less human

and sometimes ethereal

ahmet cafer celebiler 

January 19, 2025

AN ALIEN SPACE OPERA

 

POSSIBLY OF ANDROMEDAN ORIGIN

maybe 

found in  a bottle

washing up

or down

space lanes

riding a meteor

a cosmic cloud

a hallucination

of an impossible 

formless life form

a dream

neither good

nor bad

telling a juvenile adventure

of reaching a treasury of sands

and connectable dots and other things

all

based on a far away philosophy

It tells of childish hands

wishes

and thoughts 

reaching the treasury

digging in

shaping the sands and dots and whatnot

to build

constructs of dreams

their own dreams 

shaped in rock and stone and marble

for their own make believe

in playgrounds

seeded and unseeded grounds

all of which

becoming melancholic

as sentience grows in and around

saddened

regretting

the children go back

to forget

leaving aimless

meaningless

rubble

and 

creatures

petty

aimless

ignorant

but with instincts

that rule life and death

and joy and misery

in

merciless hands and thoughts and desires

of  mortals

who refuse to understand

mortality, mystery, and 

planets, suns and galaxies 

which tick endlessly

ahmet cafer celebiler 

January 17, 2025

MARAUDERS IN A TABULA RASA

    LOOTING

the decision was personal

and rather immaterial 

the instruments 

were singular

there was envy

there was hope 

purposeless intention

and aspiration

much of each

it involved 

walking

and

simultaneous digging

and damage invisible

the threads qualified 

though

apprehensive

unstrung and high-strung

yet willing

and capable 

of carrying out 

the search

and 

the venture

and the scavenging

the tabula

originally rasa

became a store

an assemblage

possibly even a compendium

for those

who 

ordained themselves 

as sayers and givers

doling out wisdom

and justice

and mana

all from the tabula rasa

ahmet cafer celebiler

January 17, 2025

YAKINDAN UZAK GÖRÜŞ

 

İÇSEL BAKIŞIN DIŞA VURULMASI

SÜREÇSELDİR

ne miyopluk dur

ne de hipermetropluk

bakıp görmemek

görüp görmemek

o delikten görülen

renkli

ve sonra

silikleşen hisleri 

donuklaşan yüzü

başka bir mahale taşımak

zamanlarda eritmek

geleceğin mekanından

azletmek 

yaşlanmak budur

oyuncaklar saklanır

oyunlar sürdürülmez

kazanmak alkışlanmaz

mutluluk uykudur

uykusuz mutlulukları algılamak da

yeni

yeniyi yeni keşfeden

yeni olmayanı yana iten

azgınlıklara gülümseten

birileri var olsa da 

ahmet cafer çelebiler

7 Ocak, 2025

ABSCISSION

 

AGES OF TRUNCATION

education

for all ages

is syncopating

as much as

loading

and

overloading

young

and also

senescent loves

spruce up

through 

joy

and beauty

and

idyllic walks

in hills

and

in life

preparing

for pruning

later

trimmed 

thoughts and abilities

tread a

path

with

nascent signs

of  sanguine peace

amidst ancestral traits

of calamity

resisting

psyche

rest

and 

indulgence

ahmet cafer celebiler

January 7, 2025

MÜBECCEL

 MÜBECCEL

güzelse kadındır

manzara

aş

iş

değil

müşahhasdır

taş toprak gibi

din inanç değil

göz 

gönüldür

vahadır

mücerret olmadan

senin değil

benimdir

uyanık düşlerimde

ahmet cafer çelebıler

Ocak 4,  2025

PERAMBULATION

 

    Perambulation

boundaries

and 

borders

abound

between

bodies 

political

and matrimonial

bilateral

and vertical

of steps

ladders

and slopes

hills

and

dells

streets

and

skin

a detriment

for bonding

of webs 

and binds

not ever bouncing 

back to a new beginning

through

points of no return

HABERDASHERY

 

Dangerous Gender Slurs

gentlemen's clothing 

on display

sometimes

with knick knacks

but not 

knickerbockers

any more

though

milliners

survive

even 

in a Japanese animation

without

shoguns 

and samurais

but wizards

and witches

all

watching wars

with

good 

and evil spirits

all waiting for the 

winners

and losers 

to emerge from the gates

not mistaking

the swirling dust and smoke

for a targeted meadow

although still in a paddock

not a shop for men and women

but 

still frequented by

wizards and witches

ahmet cafer celebiler

January 1, 2025