Letter Accumulation

I have collected Words with meaning

 words of many letters

 in dictionaries

 or in fictionaries

 How will they survive

 in this chaotic hive

when they are no longer alive

 If I have departed

 with my collection unfeted

and their creator disregarded

 ACC Dec.31.20

ALTITUDE AND MAGNITUDE OF HUMAN EXPECTATIONS

Expectations are like senses; of touch, smell, sight, sound and taste. They are the sauces and spices of both fleeting and enduring thoughts. An event, an acquisition. a behavior, a sentence, a gesture a movement of the eyes or hands can be disregarded, misregarded or unrecognized when they were meant to respond to a perceived expectation. Similarly, no word, sign or action may be produced in response to an expectation that has come and gone in time and space unrecognized, un-categorized and deemed unworthy of notice like many a person produces and meets during a meet or a give-and-take of sorts. When life is life and you are you, you do not formulate logical expectations, consequences, results of ideas, values, thoughts, beliefs, cultural identities that are unforgivenly based on assumptions, sand mines and watery holes dependent on meteorological. geological, divinely behavioral phenomena. You do not need to. They occur by themselves independent of you. Your task is to make the best of the cards dealt to you, alone and/or in partnership with your cosmos.

 

Oldum olalı ilginç. bulduğum, zeki olduguna inandığıim tanıdıklarım hakkında kafa yorarım.

Belki yasamlarımız, belki merak ve değerlerimiz, belki algılanan menfaatlerimiz, belki çelişki ve gizli rekabetlerimiz aynı ortamlarda bulunmamızı engelledi. İyi mi oldu kötü mü bilmiyorum ama ilgim ve merakım azalmadigi gibi düşüncelerimden de çıkmadin..

Son hafta, beyin ameliyati ile biraz daha düşünüp aşağıdakini yazdim.birisi icin. 

Kendime göre böyle tanımışım. Gizemler insanlar icin değerlidir. Umarım, konu aktörü, "Bu herif neden boyle düşünmüş " diyerek kendi iç carklarini, bağlantısız bağğğlantılarını, ağlarini, rezistanslarını, devrelerini bir daha gözden gecirmek ister belki kendinden saklanmadan.

İnsanlar kar tanesi gibi olamazlar, her iki cinsin benzer olmadıkları, kendi içlerinde bilimsel ve felsefi  ve şamanistik uygulamalarla saptanmıştır. Bu cinslerin biri sıvı alıp verirler. Diğeri ise kabuk değiştirme uzmanıdırlar.

Tür, tür benzersizlikler içinden, benzersizliği çok aşina olmayanlar çıkar. Göze çarpmayı sevmeden, göz ucundan sıvışıp algılamayan gözlerden kayıp olurlar, kar taneleri gibi erimeseler bile.

Tanınmak, anlanmak açıklanmayan amaçlarına, gerçek mesleklerine uymaz. Mutluluk tanımları ise ne tanınmaya, ne anlanmaya uyar. Nedense mutsuzluk tanımları ile farklı oldukları belli belirsizdir.

Tanımlamaların ne denli zararlı olduğunu yaşayan bu insanlar, en yoğun kar tanelerinden daha yoğundurlar, yarım hayatları radyoaktif izotoplar gibidirler.

Hep vardırlar; iyi ki de vardırlar.

ahmet cafer celebiler (Hemmed Effendi)

26 Aralik, 2020

On being Sure

 

If demand can be stretched as a woven elastic belt 

to fit all waist sizes from 26 to 44,

from teens to years many score, 

and if supply filled all cells

 frontal and temporal,

 there would be no room for new thoughts,  likes, dislikes, ideas, 

inventions, scents and other senses.

And Darwin would no more evolve.

It would only be primordial swamp

 and effluvium 

and all beings teetering 

on stilts of certainty.

December 26, 2020

AŞİNA KELLE AMELİYATI SONRASI

 Bazı şeyler aklından geçer insanın, su gibi, hisler, fikirler gibi.

Ama başından geçmezler, akıl baştadır lafını geçersiz kılmak istercesine.

Çoğu zaman bu baştan geçirilecekler başın çok yakınına gelirler, turnosol kağıdı koysan rengini değiştirecek kadar hatta. Ama her baş o yakınlığı algılamaz, algılamayı uygun görmez. O, renkler, desenler, değerler kişinin  yaşam inançlarına, tanımlarına ters gelir. Yaşamın anlamı olup olmadığı bazen ahret,  bazen mahrem ile açıklanır. Fakat  anlamı ve amaç akla ve başa gelenlerle ölçülmez, tartılmaz.  Bu işi yapacak olan tartının ölçekleri, ağırlıkları, terazi dengesi ne astrolojik bir işaretde, ne de hukuk tanımın da değildir.

Her canlının doğum ve yaşam hakkı ülkemiz insanı için kabul edilmiş  hak olmadığı gibi.

Ameliyat 19.12.2020

Yazı 26.12.2020

ESKİLER SATIYORUM

 

çocukluğumun sokak satıcıları

   tablaları

       tepsileri

           bakraçları

   küfeleri

                     omuzlarda asılı

  omuzlar düşük

               çökük

erken yaşlı

halâ yaşlı

   sırıklar eğri

   omuzlar eğri

tepsiler tablalar yarı dolu

hepsi satılmadan dönmezler

satmasınlar istiyorum

    eve dönmesinler

       benim omuzlarımda

                   yaşasınlar

                         diye

ACC Aralık 2020

 

THE QWERTY MIND

children love keys

in locks

on a box  

on the piano

or a clarinet, contra-alto

till they become short elegies

their mysteries 

like trees on Mars

in an age 

disappearing with age

memories 

used up

in tatters

when nothing much matters

except the warmth of stars

ACC

2019

INEDIBLE CONCOCTION

 

Vows do not make a sum bigger than its parts.

A field of Two Individuals is not A matrix

Two numbers added are no more than squiggles

Many thoughts together is mambo jumbo

So why do homing ants clean house every year?

And nesting penguins did not visit us this year?

acc 

november 2020

A TRAGIC RHYMING EXERCISE

 

PHILOPATRY

I think I once was Marc Anthony

Whistling a soliloquy

Wantonly on a quay

In Alexandroupoli

Waiting for Cleopatry 

With no concern for philopatry

November, 2020

IDIOCY OF SMARTNESS

Eser does not like it when I become pedantic in everyday behavior.

But, once in a while, i cannot help but write  short pieces like the following.

This is the first edition of an unedited toy train of thought on a circular track :

That humans are smart is an assumption based on the beliefs, knowledge and thinking of some other humans, who would like to believe this assumption is fact.

History, literature and politics prove otherwise. Scientific analysis, investigation and logic become valid instruments only after assumptions and observations are formulated and then are mistakenly accepted as fact.

In sociological, psychological and political context, ethical, compassionate and logical behavior is usually based on social contracts formulated by a few “smart’ persons who were interested in protecting their families, wealth, position, tribes, nations, football clubs, etc. against typical idiotic behavior of humans in general. Whether the rules and conditions of these social contracts (which vary according to cultural context) are universal or valid for all humans is a moot point.

It is up to you as a thinker to follow Sextus Empiricus, Macchiavelli, Voltaire or Alfred Jarry and Eugene Ionesco, non of which will classify you as smart or stupid in the absence of a valid yardstick.

ACC

November

2020

WITHOUT EMOTION

 

MILLENIA OF HUMAN THOUGHT

 

there is a depository

of thought

built betwixt clouds

          thoughts thought

thoughts Thought and thought Lost

 

collected

along pathways

          And webways

lit by stars

         Or decals of stars

tiny pricks of awe

 

                   while

the half life

of the Perpetual apocalypse

of this

           and of another

other dimension

          disappeared into

 

gaping maws of inconsequentiality

         in Technicolor

 

ACC

03/10/2020

Enemy

Not Everyone Recognizes the Enemy

“We have met the enemy and he is us.”

(Oliver Hazard Perry 1813)  (Walt Kelly, after poster on Earth Day, 1970)

History of all fabled and unnarrated times tell us that humans frequently damage themselves, their environment, friends, loved ones, relationships of all types, countries, neighbors, political parties, institutions, organizations, employers, employees, spouses, progeny, armies, ambitions, livelihood and lives unknowingly, unintentionally, ignorantly.

Nobody escapes this predicament; sages and professors, learned and unlearned ones, benign  devotees or vicious despots, sinners and angels, my parents and my daughters.

Some of the damage reminds one of the story of the old Japanese shadow puppet entertainer told at the end of a favorite book, “Quinn’s Shanghai Circus” by Edward Whittemore. Some is more earthshaking, with multiple tremors and ripple effects which can only be offset in an alternate universe tale.

Heeded warnings are forgotten even in most fairy tales. Unheeded ones are taught in text books, sometimes to tell new generations of scholars the wisdom of old sages, philosophers, wits, unforgotten writers of humanity and life, mostly to be learned but not to be heeded once again and again and again.

I cannot tell if it is a psychological or neurological issue, a built in self-destructive neuron network that formats thought or values/ beliefs that can be energized to frame a series of behavioral associations leading to uncharted territory. I can only surmise that warps in space time continuum and the activity or dormancy of time crystals may have something to do with this observation.

At any moment or cross section on the warp, humans are mistreating their loved ones, endangering their careers, mistreating their voters or workers, damaging their immediate environment and their instruments, ignoring their future health and happiness and joy and survival. 

Hazily realized mistakes  transform into regrets to lead to other actions and similar or different regrets. A lifetime of lessons learned and forgotten, regrets regretted and forlorn.

Chances, possibilities, probabilities, risks are not easily discerned. And when they are believed to have been understood, one searches for a coin to flip. Ignorance of statisticians and mathematicians were made famous by Ms. M. vos Savant (after her 1990 column on a variation of the Monty Hall problem.) (also, “Why Flip a Coin,”  W.H. Lewis)

Whether one is a practitioner of flippism or follower of “Madman Theory” it is difficult to place or presage beyond the Tom Stoppard approach in “Rosencrantz and Guildernstern are Dead” (play or film)

Others like Bernard Black in “Black Books” can get away with, “It's an impossible choice. I'll just have to hope when I flip the coin, it somehow explodes and kills me.” To others, it is a slow death and not easily attributed to a decision tree toppling down due to pestilence or tempest or a misguided logger.

In the Corona year 2020 of our good Lord, we sacrifice our precious bodily fluids, unearned freedoms, face uncalculated dangers for our ambitions, greed,  pockets, loved ones, unloved companions and continue to believe that we are better than extinct species which survived much longer than humanity.

ACC. May 2020

Biting Edges of Physics & Self Aggrandizement

POEM(S) OF TIME

“A ​time crystal​ or space-​time crystal​ is a structure that repeats in ​time​, as well as in space. Normal three-dimensional ​crystals​ have a repeating pattern in space, but remain unchanged as ​time​ passes. ​Time crystals​ repeat themselves in ​time​ as well, leading the ​crystal​ to change from moment to moment.”*

Time crystals

Once and always aglitter

Concentric or maybe eccentric

To each other

Digested by black holes

to spill out

and appear for you

As local bubbles

Maybe

One of these years

Yet never

In dreams

Of Pliocene

Apropos of another bang

Of a time crystal

Life years away

Light years of memories far

A plague for some

A fruit Garden of Eden for humanity

Epics are pictures

Of personal Pleistocene

In dreams

Of dreams

Dreamt

Bereft of humor

Frequently phantomizing

Times of horror

Numbed by

Cramped by

Ruled by

Impersonal inhibitors

Each dream

Each wish

Every hope

Lost in epics

Of epics

Proportioned

And placed

Among your very own

Cherished and

Easily vanished

Hoard of

Time crystals

Ahmet C. Celebiler

April 23, 2020

* PhD defense of Lei Liao

“Space-time crystals and analogue Black Holes in Bose-Einstein condensates”

Einstein's Theory Personified

GRAVITY

"Gravity is the curvature of spacetime"


A. TIME

When the future is nigh

Today

Yet

Today is still the day

And tomorrow

Never

It’s time to declare

Write and swear

By Smith and Corona

In hazy triplicate

(Note: Having used carbon And paper Of those times

Letters fall through holes Of the ribbon 

B. SPACE

Then, melt the wax

Sign and seal with a ring

Any ring

Always a ring with a promise

To care to be always there

Given during a moment

Blurry

Seen through holes 

Stamped by a moth

mole or a family

C. CURVATURE

A shadow sits

Reading the missive

Wax seal dark, whole and forbidden

Enjoying a retro vintage dinner

Amidst 

Images rustling rushing or halcyon

Another warp in history

Ahmet  

February 6, 2020

A Leaf or Two For Me and You

A Leaf or Two For Me and You

Grape leaves cover less

But for morality may suffice

Yet the artist always chose

Fig leaves that abrase

Knowing neither will stay