CURIOSITY
some curves
so pleasing
may cause accidents
on a road
or
in a car
when one feels young
and
traveling
through and through
aware
but
not knowing
what it means
to
navigate
desires
and
distances
ahmet cafer celebiler
September 23, 2025
düşler ve görüşler şiirler, düz ve eğri yazılar, ingilizce-türkçe ukalalıklar, seyahat algılamaları karmaşası. a messy mixture of memorabilia: poetry, poetic prose, fiction, fictionesque travel notes, and such.
CURIOSITY
some curves
so pleasing
may cause accidents
on a road
or
in a car
when one feels young
and
traveling
through and through
aware
but
not knowing
what it means
to
navigate
desires
and
distances
ahmet cafer celebiler
September 23, 2025
MOST OF MY FRIENDS COULD NOT SING
(AT FUNERALS OR ELSEWHERE)
they are still my friends
living
or not
fictional
or documented
or remembered
as factual
i doubt that they saw a light
or many lights
when alive
or when they went away
in my case
it was dark
a darkness unvisible
untouchable
not to be sensed
and
not to be considered
without relevance
or meaning
as
forgettable
as
any relic
of thought
or
of substance
ahmet cafer celebiler
September14, 2025
DEMOCRACY, MONARCHY, THEOCRACY, DICTATORSHIP , VIOLENCE FOR HUMANITY
Using acts of violence to silence viewpoints is quite common in democracies as well as other systems of government. In democracies the perpetrators are not openly linked to the bureaucracy or the government. Sometimes they are called, “the deep state”, sometimes “concerned citizens” or “true believers” or “foreign agents” or “unidentified terrorists” The result is the same: suffering, unless the ruling elite makes the mistake of upsetting a large proportion of the population or if the material benefits of the vilolence is not distributed to the group who expected or were promised returns. What happens next depends on the culture. Authoritarian cultures which teach subservience, class differences, and have religions which continue to disregard human rights may change one type of dictator to another or just sit and hope and pray for better times. The obsequious majority may only try to cheat and steal and expect servility from any others they consider their inferiors. Their justifications are based on myths, fairy tales, divine texts and most written laws.
otherchelebi
September 13, 2025
BITING TAILS
tail biting
does not sustain
unless
the tail
belongs to
an enemy
or opponent
in which case
it behooves one
to find a plump
longish
hairless one
prepared sous vide
or
grilled on charcoal
with fresh herbs
and spices
after making sure that
it does not belong to yourself
and to family
and friends
and
definitely not
someone of authority
over
the use of your tail
ahmet cafer celebiler
September 13. 2025
GODDESSES I KNEW
ishtar was the first
and
ever present one
appearing as inanna
on occasion
traveling east
to appear
to others
in guise
as wangmu niangniang
and amaterasu
not as Kamadenu
who appeared
to meditating
believers
and cows
Men find them
mysterious
if they find them at all
to recognize
for who they are
i researched, studied,
rationalized
tried looking from corners of my eyes
and through lenses
of many sizes
and lengths
and materials
the actual
the real
and the fantasy
not so different
when you try to touch
and feel
and
then
lose touch
even with
disappearing memories
self destroying experiences
vestiges of divinity enjoyed
all too briefly
ahmet cafer celebiler
September 12, 2025
WORDS ABOVE AND BELOW THE GROUND
not all words live
only a few
breathe
sleep
mean more or less
depends on the town crier
one of two hundred
or so
in
the united kingdom
or
the memories
of
umalohokans
in
the philippines
hear ye
the strong voices
traveling
with their words
clear
direct
with no wit
or games
oyez
the sanctimonious
the man
chief
priest
or
captain
possibly
the spouse
but not yours
no, not at all
only a dream
whisked away
ahmet cafer celebiler
September 10, 2025
TO BE EXPUNGED IF NOT OBLITERATED
waking up
not waking
and not up
checking
breath
heart beat
noises from other rooms
familiar
may be good
cat's presence almost obvious
though
toes are not under attack
take mask off
one relief achieved
need to leave bed
and
walk to next relief
calculate urgency
wake
still not up
urgency is more urgent
swinging feet down
not so easy
must roll body
disregard upper left arm muscle pain
remember position of cane
slow walk
28 steps to sit
no need for a sigh
plan new moves
to wash
to clean
to call for choice of breakfast
eggs
how many
with salad
or cheese
blue, i think i should choose
tea
apple cider vinegar first
arrange pills
by size and colour
tea already tepid
look for newspaper
search glasses
prioritize
sports, politics, murders
singular or en masse
visualize art and authors
silently vocalize concerts
wake up
consider options
PC or bed
choice of relief
check the ferry boats
wonder who rides them
and who missed them
for another few minutes
of
bed
or relief
as always
ahmet cafer celebiler
September 2, 2025
PUNISHMENT OF ACHIEVEMENT
not everyone
can
or should
escape mediocrity
just lay back
and feel the breeze
on your face
and
let it carry your words
away
as far away
as possible
The only incentive in any political idological system depends on the recognition of loopholes and the ability to utilize them for furthering one’s power and/or wealth. However, one needs to stay in the background and not flaunt any achievements, if possible, frequently discarding aces and kings with a vacant, shamed face.
As far as my almost eighty years of experience tells, there is no system that rewards intelligence, ability and hard work after a certain point in a political, academic, legal or business hierarchy. In fact, it becomes a requirement that you have to use your intelligence, ability, hard work and expertise to hang on to what you have achieved instead of attempting for new achievements.
This is true in communism, capitalism, theocracy, idiocracy, tribalism and even home economics.
too many
chiefs
and
spouses
made the mistake
to never be heard again
in great edifices
or tiny igloos
ahmet cafer celebiler
August 29, 2025
GROUPS CLASSES GATHERINGS
social sciences
all imagined
pictured
sent
to
soft matter
covered by layer upon layer
of other matter
and bones
and
multiple networks
also
hair
to protect
surfaces
despite
endangered holes
and ramparts
breachable
and
contents
not esoteric
just
a receptacle
for
data
trickled through sieves
nets
slabs
atmospheric oddities
stirred
shuffled
by events
feelings
and thoughts
alien
to the species
sporadic
mistaken
misshaped
and
wishing
they were surreal
super beings
with no evidence
or rationale
to leave
accompanying
fireflies
and weevils
and
dust
and sand
and
stars
so
far away
yet close
ahmet cafer celebiler
August 25, 2025
Gunboat Diplomacy: Turkey, USA and the Advent of the Cold War
This visit was not to welcome me to the world. It was almost two years after my arrival.
But, it was the beginning of political and military activity which dominated the first thirty years of my educational and social life.
ahmet celebiler
August 24, 2025
FOLLOW THE REVERSED HIEROPHANT
odes
written
to the
west wind
and stories
of
the bona fide
and all other
tufans
whirl
in
succession
and
unapprehended aspiration
carrying furies
to torment
a prometheus
ancient and modern
and others
bound by visible
and unvisible
life lines
to rocks
and to each other
some
under jupiters throne
others
trodden
under his feet
and
other appendages
twisted
with whirlwinds
arthritic
sent to bind humanity
to rocks
to beliefs
to authority
the demigorgon
paying a long
uninterrupted
visit
to the surface
since the advent of the primordial black hole
ahmet cafer celebiler
August 17, 2025
references : "Prometheus Unbound" , "Ode to the West Wind
GUILTY UNTIL A MAJORITY OF READERS FIND ME INNOCENT
i have been plagiarizing from my other blog, "www.otherchelebistravels.blogspot.com", but founf out that access has been denied to it, for some reason. yet other international readers have been accessing it.
In any case, some of these trips are also on my Fodor's trip reports which my children and grandchildren would never find interesting because reading and those subjects are not popular in their world.
I hope that you find this occasional divergence from my regular topics fun and/or esoteric. And if you do or do not, please let me know so I can believe that you are not an AI active in all those countries.
Ahmet celebiler
otherchelebi
August 8, 2025
NO SAGE OR GURU
BUT BITING TONGUE
AND WRITING HAND
WHILE THROWING KERNELS
TO THE HUNGRY
It means that you have spent time thinking of your ambitions, capabilities, quirks of character and all and more similar stuff like these for yourself andall people you interact with including fictional characters, family, friends, politicians, the rich and the famous and the poor and destitute.
You also consider other creatures as lives worthy of evaluation, and nature and art and beauty, wit and quirkiness you can discover as worthy of more thought and feeling.
The above , and more will give you a multitude of view points. You do not pick a single one or just a few as your very own. Accept them all as part of your life and that of all else, recognize them without making value judgements.
Pick some or most to use to write to talk, to utilize in your relationships, careers, hobbies, without ignoring, detesting, fighting, ridiculing any others.
If you have passed this on before you die, you should have a happy, satisfied departure from life.
ahmet cafer celebiler
August 8, 2025
BLACK SEA TRIP CONTINUED 2
BLACK SEA TRIP CONTINUED 1
The kid on the slide is my wife Eser. She has the ability to be any age at any time she wishes, thus making her the perfect team member on travels for sharing everything you see, experience and feel.
The location is 'Saklibahce Restaurant' about 15 kilometers out of Bartin, on the way to Ulus and Kastamonu. One of the best kebaps we had anywhere.
Below:
This shop window in Bartin gave us the idea of finding similar shops at all the small towns we visited on this trip to compose a portfolio to send to our daughter in Chicago, for her upcoming wedding in Fall 2009.
Knowing us well, she was not upset when she discovered what we were doing, although she had some difficulty explaining to her fiancee, why we were doing this, and why it was funny. Now that he knows us better, he laughs also at jokes like this. Whether he actually appreciates them is another point.
J'ACCUSE
it is instinctual
to find fault
to find inadequate
and
to deny
to find an excuse
or three
for powerless
children
students
employees
citizens
spouses
immigrants
legal or not
political
contractual
even nuptial
servants
all slaves
voluntary
and involuntary
the powerless
real
and misperceived
have a personal lawyer
sitting on one shoulder
whispering
never admit
never accept blame
or criticism
no matter the subject
or object
and
lo
a new thesaurus
becomes available
of endless excuses
rational or irrational
related or disparate
till the critic bows
in shame and defeat
of sorts
to avoid a kerfuffle
time lines change
history becomes confusion
memory fragments get lost
tastes and views reposition
tradition is traded
learning is unlearned
not replaced
but
misplaced
a sign
of senescenc
for one
and
idiocracy for the culture
and all its subcultures
ahmet cafer celebiler
August 5. 2025
ENTRENCHED VERSES VERSUS FLEETING GESTURES
restlessness of unsaturated love
a phrase
meaningless
except to a twenty year old
concocted
in 1963
carried to now
to sell
self
and other
unquotable thoughts
and
emotions
for acceptance
of intellect
and achievements
unfamiliar
not at all attractive
as sign of ability
not worthy of surpise
some resentment value
discardable
overused instinctual
faded glamour
an expression
on a third century statue
from a long deserted
necropolis
So shall one become
at a later age
not statuesque
no smile
a grimace
as evidence
of
later ages
when possible
ahmet cafer celebiler
August 3, 2025
MY BAD!
I admit that i very seldom proofread what i have written or ask those family members who were forced to read until very recently. even during the years they were under duress, they seldom pointed out spelling and definitely no logical or grammatical errors or warned me that what i wrote would make more sense if i used some different words and in different ways.
In that way, I must admit that they are either respectfull or ignorant or they could not care less, or all three and more. It is not a thing with them or for them, just as acknowleding that I thought I was a philosopher or poet or an amateur social scientist who somehow managed to earn enough to afford their education in private schools in Turkiye and universities in the United states in their chosen careers.
I shall have to be satisfied with my readers correcting my spelling and grammatical mistakes as they read and think that they are proof that they are dealing with a real person and not an AI.
ahmet cafer celebiler
July 31, 2025
ANGER, ANTIPATHY, SENSELESS VIOLENT BEHAVIOUR
these are all too common
to the human species
according to
laymen
unacademic students
of human actions
writers
speakers
family
and
friends
lawmen
and
lawless
men and women
living unaware lives
not ever
seeing
or feeling
ghosts
of their subjects
haunting them
with
unexpected
sudden
temporary
twitches
itches
skin bumps
cold
and hot
flashes
not at all menapausal
heart murmurs
unrelated to lost testosterone
and
dreams
of
lost opportunities
for joy and happiness
The subjest of these actions
other humans
insects
abandoned shelters
pets
fish
molluscs
moths
even butterflies
winged
and
with many legs
antennae
that feel
all that they feel
with
stoic thoughts
as an incident of their lives
till they decide
to haunt
us
the perpetrators
Ahmet cafer Celebiler
June 31, 2025
MOST MICE DO NOT KNOW ENOUGH TO LEAVE A SINKING SHIP
Developing nations, send out their young and ambitious and hopefull to developed nations. Mostly to get one or more university degrees. But, quite a few professionals, academics, and scientists go also to escape the dictatorial domestic justice system, lack of justice, official resentment against qualified, intelligent, rational and successfull individuals, and, to have a chance for recognition, research and higher earning potential.
Currently, some are noticing an increasing trend of an exodus of academics and cultural elites from the United States. Interestingly enough, although America is believed to be the land of opportunity, the reasons why some Americans are leaving are quite similar to those of the alienated from developing nations. Can this cause drastic financial, fiscal, economic, scientific, academic, research related problems in America?
(the following was my answer to a related question on the internet)
I do not see an urgent problem. however, it is not an issue to be ignored.America will have enough elites and academics to keep thinkers, readers, students and the curious at well above critical levels despite the not so strange attempts of a group of political and economic power holders who do not wish to realize that their presence and power in America actually depends on those and earlier elites and academics. None of this has anything to do with existence or future of democracy. But a great deal to do with empathy, compassion, mindfullness, mental development, child rearing, diets and international relations, all of which have suffered at the hands of the same elites and even some of the same academics since the beginning of the 19th Century despite the attempts of a handful of thinkers, writers, social scientists and philosophers.
Citizens who vocalize and engage the issue, do it for their personal beliefs and needs and not for the good of all or the development and success of an American political system which is mistakenly self-identified as ‘democracy.’
America always had elites and academics disappointed with the system and life and beliefs prevalent among the governing and the governed. Some of these thinkers, artists, writers, musicians. scientists would leave as they do today but they were usually replaced by new generations, albeit still only a handfull. American universities and the collected wealth of knowledge and thought somehow brings up good stuff in some of each new generation, although some types of knowledge and thought get laid by the wayside or change in ways saddening to codgers like me.
ahmet cafer celebiler
July 29, 2025
MR SOMEONE THINKS OF CABBAGES AND NOT CANNABIS
Animals, pets, children and spouses can sense the approaching demise of their Mr. Someone. When they do, it is a time of rationalization, stoicism, acceptance and reduced interest in the subject. Mr. Someone becomes hazy and somewhat far away from sight and thought. A lower priority dimness.
He is always there. he does what he does everyday. nothing new. He does not talk of his health and well-being. Just says, "Fine." If someone should, for any reason, ask him his thoughts on any subject, he would probably respond, 'it is complicated" or "maybe" or "how terrible and senseless" and would stop there, leaving the elaboration to others.
He does not like to listen much or converse. Looks at people and checks his meds at the dinner table.
He remembers a few acquaintances in Iznik, a grain wholesaler, an illiterate greengrocer, a very literate pharmacist, owner of a medium sized dime store, a dry goods store owner who supplied once a month a gypsy clan and a newpaper and magazine shop owner who sold lottery tickets, who had become a candidate for district mayor and lost. Some of them passed away and some just disappeared from his life. With visits to iznik becoming more difficult because of Summer heat, occupation of the house by children and grandchildren, and the schedule of the spouse, he also denied himself the physical therapy/massage by a friendly Russian lady married to a friendly Turkish odd-job man, and the emotional therapy of the three cats who never became picky with their affections towards me like humans. Occasionally, he worries about them but knows deep down that they will not be upset or too disappointed with his long absences.
He has stored his medals, cups, plaques of recognition and thanks, together with his favorite charms, which, he knows, never charmed anyone but himself when they were placed on the PC stand.
He still tries to find and concoct new recipes for his meals, using exotic and standard herbs and spices which may not alway be good for his digestion, promising that he will soon lose some weight and the obese look he detests, but not so much.
He buys online pajamas, underwear, comfortable lounge pants and shorts and V-neck and polo t-shirts, mostly orange, shades of green and blue, as well as supplements, shaving and hair cutting gear (for his new grown miraculous hair that almost covers all of the bald skull since December 2024)
Plays games against the computer and writes with a similar speed and ambition.
His eyes get glassy, his mind becomes confused, and his head turns now and then, while his joints and legs try to tell him things he does not wish to hear but knows he must accept.
His family has been preparing for the soon to come day when he disappears, by nicely (they believe) ignoring him and assuming his feelings and thoughts in a pleasant way. He doubts that not even his collections, books, poems, trophies, toys, charms and board games will miss him for long.
Ahmet cafer celebiler
July 26, 2025
OPENING DERELICT BOXES
when life
as lived
was short
and horizons
were far
one puts away memories
and
memorabilia
to laugh
to relive
not so far away
just a few steps
and a tiptoe reach
sad ones already discarded
decades gone by
boxes
and contents
get unboxed
one hot day
in Summer of
eighty first year
newspaper headlined faces
in crowds of protester
entitled names among
members
attendees
speakers
mediators
other holders
of names
now
almost
nameless
prescriptions
from 1945 and 46
somehow
insinuated
their not so legible
presence
into the box
of
vagrant
remembrances
without cause to remember
all very dusty
tattered
puerile
good for a fine sneeze
ahmet cafer celebiler
July 24, 2025
SECRET STORAGE OF IDENTITIES
i keep notions
and
feelings
of
images
recollections
people i have met
beautiful people
all very human
they stay at the age I met
and stored
i age
they stay the same
for me
to reminisce
and remove from the depths
as visions
as fading pictures
seldom within a landscape
but
always a background
of emotion
of appreciation
and delight
ephemerally avoiding droughts
i think
i should thank them
and not forget
even the nameless
before i join them
in their storage
any storage
of people
humans
who may not even have met me
IT IS GOOD TO KNOW YOU
ahmet cafer celebiler
July 22, 2025
TALES OF FOLKS AND FAIRIES AND THEIR MORALS
there are good and bad
kings, queens
animals
pets
step mothers sisters
and other
petty persons
many tricksters
as dwarfs
witches
and wise men
and cats who wear boots
irish and continental
also
japanese
involved with poisons
and swords and bells
and birds
and caves responding to sesame
megalomaniacs
and giants
mythical
and commercial
hoarders
and consumers of flesh
and freedoms
telling
and reminding
children and not children
of dangers
risks
hazards and perils
of the known
and the unknown
in so many copies
of just a few books
pored over
by minds
conditioned
to soaking them up
only to spit at others
with or without meaning
preparing children
and grown ups
and their thoughts
and minds
for later days
still
without rhyme or reason
ahmet cafer celebiler
July 21, 2025
WISHING FOR WISHES TO COME THROUGH
i am past 80
eser is almost 70
she is young
so am I
her specialties are babies and children
and also
healing
my interests are nonsense and logic
and also
'why not?'
we tried
good wishes
and good things
leaving abundant
hope and desire
to be fulfilled
by other time crystals
not of our ken or kin
knowing
that
we will ever be young
to each other
and all
who see us
as we are
and saw us
as we were
she feels people
i feel mysteries
and
we
meet
people with mysteries
forgetting
our anxieties
still
despairing
for humanity
and
cheering
the search
of Monsieur Sylvestre
ahmet cafer celebiler
July 19,2025
REARRANGEMENT GONE AWRRY
there was a convocation
for
a convention
resulting in
a magisterium
to reside
in one body
but
pieces were missing
of thoughts
of
implements
of
vocabulary
and
too many bits
and even chunks
to fill in the gaps
completion was considered
with no consensus
postponement
was the final word
it was decided to
convene at another
curvature of time and space
dependent on a mystical
or
an uncertainly calculable
birth
or
creation
of new beings
on a new landhold
with a different
mindhold
worthy
to fathom
examine
complete
and
indulge
ahmet cafer celebiler
July, 19, 2025
WORSHIPPERS ON PARCHMENT AND STONE
CALLING FROM MINARETS AND BELFRY
belief is assumed
when
the called one
is divine even
a trickster
following
songs
chants and
knells
glockenspiel
chimes
gongs
or
flute of a shepard
jarring awake
or
calling sleep
and sheep
exotic
esoteric
or
at times
inscrutably erotic
serve
purposes
also
exotic
and esoteric
parts and portions
of mysteries
subject
of
cabals and covens
that
may not be disclosed
except
by
ahmet celebiler
July 17, 2025
RECOGNIZING THE CENTURY OF MEDICINE MEN
lucian knew
only one
upstart
or start up
those thousands of years ago
when he
wrote
what he wrote
about alexander
the world knew
but
did not divulge
others
who followed glycon
all medicine men
in their own right
albeit with no degree
for many millenia
Our culture
beset by
our beliefs
in
miracles
of technology
reared
the new breed
of
healers
and
good witches
warlocks
with university degrees
and
framed certificates
and
more importantly
machines
that light up
and machines
that go beep
subject to Hygieia
performing
performing
duties
of
Iaso
and panacea
and aceso
many miracles
not recorded
but
desired
wished
words of mouths
gnats living on
wishful thoughts
and dreams
survivors
of hard times
and connivers
of culpability
ahmet cafer celebiler
July 15, 2025
A JOINT HISTORIC PROJECT TO BE SHARED
www.youtube.com/@esercelebiler
photographs mostly by Eser
words by Ahmet
music chosen mostly by Ahmet
COMMON LAW VS CIVIL LAW
deeper down
both mean the same
laws apply
to the common man
and civilians
or the weaker side
or group
or partner
or nation
even
in international organizations
and families
aristocratic
royal
and
wealthy or destitute
trade treaties
international
and commercial
are like
prenups
until
the promise
vaporizes
and the assets
if any
are up for grabs
subject to
trust and trusts
glass ceilings
stockholm syndromes
Sigmund Freud and Nicola Machiavelli
even when
real princes do not exist
in the world
structured by power
and selfishness
and greed
ahmet cafer celebiler
July 10, 2025
CONFUSING INDIVIDUAL AND GROUP IDENTITY
i like this
we hate them
subjects
and objects
interchangeable
replaceable
contingent
racist or nationalistic
DNA tested
and
ancestor guessed it
royally individual
never really plural
self knighted
rooked
with queens
imaginary
hoped for
by all the kings
as leaders
supposed spouses
spaces apart
contemporaneous
possibly
simultaneous
anthropologically
possible
fictionally forgotten
subliminally apparent
sometimes scanned
other times
just propagandized
ever
singular and
first party plural
and subject
to Weber's law
ahmet cafer celebiler
July 7, 2025
SECRET SINUS TACHICARDIA
juvenile males
experience
palpitations
dyspnea
dysphagia
drooling
dysautonomia
exophtalmos
more than they admit
in times of real
or imagined
imminent sex
mature males
and
all females
are asymptomatic
as far as
spectators discern
except on visual media
AI
or
professional crew
produced
calluses
of delicate senses
and walls
of indelicate passions
built over time
disrupt rays
and auras
and feelings
gathering all
in
murky depths
of the psyche
eminent physicians
comparing notes
argue to this day
if invasive
or noninvasive
techniques
are best suited
to cure these conditions
vying
with shamans
witches
homeopaths
and
psychical
and
physical
chiropractors
ahmet cafer celebiler
July 7, 2025
PESSIMISM RULES THE DAY
(may be related to the news of demise of another classmate or millions of plant and animal lives lost in forest fires)
We are dupes. Countries, governed by parliaments, senates, congresses, presidents, prime ministers, kings, dictators, chiefs, headmen and such are not ruled by people who do things out of the goodness of their hearts. they receive compensation as money, as status, as luxuries, as applause, as exceptional service for their families, a better grave or urn and the possibility of a few immemorable words on paper, stone, marble or screen. They are accountable not to the public, not to inhabitants who voted for them and who support them, but to a small group of natives and foreigners who can play on their strings through money, gold, threats, blackmail, false promises and the ability to dupe them.
We have unknowingly and ignorantly, as a result of millenia of unjust, unfair life on this globe, signed a social contract with those earthly powers upon birth and were assigned and reassigned roles at various points of our lives through the systems, cogs, wheels and whirligigs of education, careers, social, economic and political institutions.
We fight each other for the morsels thrown at us because we have no means to fight social contracts with impunity.
ahmet celebiler
July 5, 2025
DYSTOPIA BEGAN WITH LIFE
the first ever kvetch
was the autochtonic owner
of an ingrown toe nail
not subject
to pity
or empathy
unaware of
auras negative
or
perspectives furtive
secreted
in a cave
self made
owner
and
distributor of
moans common
grumbles human
not discerned
by pets and peeves
even at a pity party
present
and
indigenous
in and
out of
black holes
of minds
and thoughts
single
and
plural
ahmet cafer celebiler
July 3, 2025
BELIEVING IN YOUR IMPORTANCE
This requires no third party assessment or declaration. But, there are some signs and instruments and procedures one may apply to create, invent, discover and feed faith in your significance as well as balms, charms, meditations and incantations.The trick is to first disown hubris, doubt and bravado and remove influencers like family and friends from your inner self to where they belong, outside yourself.
You may replace them with small figurines, statuettes and hazy memories of gods, cartoon caracters and pets who have no intention or desire to be real even when they are solidly sitting with you, in front of your PC, or making noise in your sojourn now and before.
Then, divide your time into little pieces, all with images you enjoy, yourself, trees, seas, mountains, waterfalls, cats and tasty edibles. What you will have will not be a puzzle that can be brought together for anything that resembles a puzzle. It will be an existential cacophony that controls life on your planet and locations thereof.
Ahmet Cafer Celebiler
June 16, 2025
FOR THE MOON CHILD
i watch you mature
even in miniature
in spaces far
amidst clouds near
driving a biga
invisible
today
to all
as luna
not selene
but as khonan
on currents of air
to meet thoth
in a game of senet
not as a pawn
but
as my queen
Ahmet Cafer Celebiler
June 11, 2025
WELTANSCHAUUNG
FOR REPTILES OF THE MIND
rules of
life
and
purpose
joy and delight
for them
who see green
and
not the tree
and
delve
on
shades of green
know their skin
scales
and
standing water
even when not green
drinking the water
and
feasting on all else
not feeling
Weltschmerz
ahmet cafer celebiler
June 6, 2025
Note: RECONSTRUCTED AND DECONSTRUCTED
FROM JOHANN WOLFGANG VON GOETHE AND WILLIAM BLAKE
PAIRING OF FIGURES AND CHARACTERS
this is a task
obvious
or masked
an ancient algorithm
without
propensity scoring
and
estimated probabilities
as well as
neighbour matching
caliper matching
balance checks
and variable comparisons
in our case
it was fancy
esthetics
symmetry
and
a time of comets
planet conjunctions
climate change
acting in act three
of a play of multiple acts
simulating
assimilated emotions
actions
of
the currently fashionable decorum
an irrational ceremony
with rational covariates
Eser and Ahmet Celebiler
June 3, 2025
WAITING FOR PEOPLE AND THINGS
used to wait
for toys
and new clothes
shoes to sleep with
in case they do not survive the first night
toys
books
father
and other friends
needing feeling needed
now
it is gargantua and pentagruel
offspring of
le grandgousier
chaucers pilgrims
at canterbury and elsewhere
and
people of boccaccio
desperate and joyous
even gorgons
my muses
while grounded
a peripheral ganglion
a household gargoyle
on guard duty
to ward of harmful spirits
reigning over the agora
of offspring
children and
one playfull
biting
pet
in a safe home
free from
the grande guignol
of these years
ahmet cafer celebiler
May 28, 2025
INCLUDING PLAGIARIZED PASSAGES
i admit at the age of 81 that possibly, possibly unintentionally and unknowingly, unawares, i have imitated
John Collier whose stories I read and enjoyed when i was 18,
Edgar Allan poe, whose works i read in my adolescensce for myself and loudly (his poetry) for all family members who could not escape, made dumb connections between the Bells and Annabellee, and wished for a personal Lenore and a raven as a pet;
felt for Alfred j. Prufrock from a distance far and tried to name my environment the Waste land, and rename cats I met, (but not the friendly ones,)
Shakespeare, Samuel Beckett, Edward lear, Jonathan swift, Lewis Carroll all of whom pointed me in the direction of Jean Paul Sartre, Ionesco, Pinter and other pataphysicists,
Too many poets, English, Irish, American; some of whom were employed in insurance like me;
And armies of nameless ants, spiders and scorpions and their human counterparts i have met and loved.
T'is vainglory
shining upon me
Thanks once more for accepting me
Ahmet cafer Celebiler
(Otherchelebi)
Sunday (Midnight but not dreary) May, 25, 2025
HABITS ARE TAILORED
on the disk
or the globe
by imps
resident
and
illegally present
from cloth
of experience dreamt
of words sermonized
of events memorized
vain in their futility
incapable of dealing
with life as lived
and
to be lived
apropos of
random ransom
and
wampum
not at all shared
ahmet cafer celebiler
May 25, 2025
REAL AND NOT SO REAL PEOPLE
when drawn
and identified
and
portrayed
in a box
or frame
or spelled right
dangled by unvisible ropes
on pages
or parchments
as scrolls
and
those
against
a backdrop
of buildings
and mountains
and water or trees
or school yards
or rooms bureaucratic
and
appointed or proclaimed
in memories
on pedestals crumbling
in niches invisible
the unreal
obscure the real
as
the mind and the person
gloom
elsewhere
for the real
school taught
elder taught
state taught
eternal
simple dimension
ahmet cafer celebiler
May23, 2025
HOW TO IDENTIFY A MATE
soul mates
or brain mates
sometimes
also
esthetic
or play mates
choosing one
implies availability
and alternatives
investigation
full application
of all senses
and understanding
self
and other selves
finite games
and their rules
literary and fictional
or documentary
and
archival
awareness
of a sentinel
it can be swift
or
time consuming
effortless
or
requiring dedication
emotionless
totally hormonal
or mental logical
temporary
or
timeless
at least for one
if not both
delusional
(psychotic)
or illusional
(misinterpreted)
full of hope
and wishful dreams
or tied by life strings
to a concrete block
No matter how and why
the process
anxious
or
joyfull
recommended
both
by writers romantic
and
readers realistic
is
the foremost
survival trait
ahmet cafer celebiler
May 18, 2025
ESCAPING FROM ILLUSION
freedom is an illusion
social
political
optical
emotional
anthropological
and
logical
antediluvian thought
philosophy
and
belief
resurfaced in ice ages
and in rain forests
and pyramids
and gained way
with sacrifice
of life
of future
of reason
and
of humanity
finding solace
in faith
in love
in philosophy
all fictional
and aetherial
falsely ethical
in sects
and cults
seemingly electoral
thought political
rarely beneficial for more than one
or a few
maybe five
or even more
in a good year
but
without a future
foreseen
with
astragalomancy
as written
and pictured
in beginners guides
to
osteomancy
in China
Mongolia
South Africa
Romania
and
everywhere
ahmet cafe celebiler
May 17, 2025
SCENTS AND STINKS
a parent
who parents
a spouse
who spouses
a child
who needs
as individuals
and groups
adore
odors
personal
and
private
secret
and confidential
inexplicable
and
so delectable
oh so memorable
and
irreplaceable
ahmet cafer celebiler
May 16, 2025
KRANION WITHOUT ENKEPHALOS
holes may be blocked
snut
earwax
cataracts
real
and
imaginary
newly acquired
or
hereditary
circumstantial
conspitarorial
or
collateral accidental
incoming filtered
and
output
not noted
not expected
hope inapplicable
the theoroi
at observatories primitive
as neolithic
as humans can be
today
and yesterday
ahmet cafer celebiler
May 15, 2025
LIVING CHARMS
amulets are hung
over thresholds
swan like necks
rear view mirrors
haruspicy
and
bones and beans
and dice
and the cards
of madams called sosostris
or others
receive messages
and
ordain auras
to unfold
future and ancient
lives and fates
not named
clotho
lachesis
or atropos
And
we
amidst
all alchemy
and enchantment
unawares
pass our days
with inhuman illogic
and
all human rules and laws
thinking
and
feeling
occasional love
and
frequent hate
ahmet cafer celebiler
May 10, 2025
A LIFE LESSON LEARNED EARLY
the infant does not hear promises
yet
when breasts and milk bottles
are close
there is expectation
as
the touch of a blanket
and
smell of sympathy
join
a nursery rhyme
one gets early esperience
of unspoken promises
there may be lies
and
subterfuge
even at these times
to lay
the foundations
of recognizing
identifying
meanings
and
feelings of truth
and
empty promises
promises are made
with
or without
intentions deep
to keep
for a day
or a week
children learn
what
and which
and how
promises
are promised
during
years of growth
but
the adult
at age ten
or many decades more
may still hope
and fall
for love
for greed
for faith
tackling self
and others
in the process
of promises
mankind
will wake up
at one stage
to offers
and promises
of elysian fields
to everyone
heroes
in their own way
and
reach out
to pluck
their own apples
otherchelebi
May 7. 2025