A SINCERE APOLOGY

 

MY BAD!

I admit that i very seldom proofread what i have written or ask those family members who were forced to read until very recently. even during the years they were under duress, they seldom pointed out spelling  and definitely no logical or grammatical errors or warned me that what i wrote would make more sense if i used some different words and in different ways.

In that way, I must admit that they are either respectfull or ignorant or they could not care less, or all three and more. It is not a thing with them or for them, just as acknowleding that I thought I was a philosopher or poet or an amateur social scientist who somehow managed to earn enough to afford their education in private schools in Turkiye and universities in the United states in their chosen careers. 

I shall have to be satisfied with my readers correcting my spelling and grammatical mistakes as they read and think that they are proof that they are dealing with a real person and not an AI.

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July 31, 2025

MISTREATED ENTITIES OF THE PAST

 

ANGER,  ANTIPATHY, SENSELESS VIOLENT BEHAVIOUR 

these are all too common

to the human species

according to

laymen

unacademic students

of human actions

writers

speakers

family

and

friends

lawmen

and

lawless

men and women

living unaware lives

not ever

seeing

or feeling

ghosts

of their subjects

haunting them

with 

unexpected

sudden

temporary

twitches

itches

skin bumps

cold

and hot

flashes

not at all menapausal

heart murmurs

unrelated to lost testosterone

and

dreams

of

lost opportunities

for joy and happiness

The subjest of these actions

other humans

insects

abandoned shelters

pets

fish

molluscs

moths

even butterflies

winged

and

with many legs

antennae

that feel

all that they feel

with

stoic thoughts

as an incident of their lives

till they decide

to haunt

us

the perpetrators

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June 31, 2025

IS AMERICA LEAKING

 

MOST MICE DO NOT KNOW ENOUGH TO LEAVE A SINKING SHIP

Developing nations, send out their young and ambitious and hopefull to developed nations. Mostly to get one or more university degrees. But, quite a few professionals, academics, and scientists go also to escape the dictatorial domestic justice system, lack of justice, official resentment against qualified, intelligent, rational  and successfull individuals, and, to have a chance for recognition, research and higher earning potential.

Currently, some are noticing an increasing trend of an exodus of academics and cultural elites from the United States. Interestingly enough, although America is believed to be the land of opportunity, the reasons why some Americans are leaving are quite similar to those of the alienated from developing nations. Can this cause drastic financial, fiscal, economic, scientific, academic, research related problems in America?

(the following was my answer to a related question on the internet)

I do not see an urgent problem. however, it is not an issue to be ignored.America will have enough elites and academics to keep thinkers, readers, students and the curious at well above critical levels despite the not so strange attempts of a group of political and economic power holders who do not wish to realize that their presence and power in America actually depends on those and earlier elites and academics. None of this has anything to do with existence or future of democracy. But a great deal to do with empathy, compassion, mindfullness, mental development, child rearing, diets and international relations, all of which have suffered at the hands of the same elites and even some of the same academics since the beginning of the 19th Century despite the attempts of a handful of thinkers, writers, social scientists and philosophers.

Citizens who vocalize and engage the issue, do it for their personal beliefs and needs and not for the good of all or the development and success of an American political system which is mistakenly self-identified as ‘democracy.’

America always had elites and academics disappointed with the system and life and beliefs prevalent among the governing and the governed. Some of these thinkers, artists, writers, musicians. scientists would leave as they do today but they were usually replaced by new generations, albeit still only a handfull. American universities and the collected wealth of knowledge and thought somehow brings up good stuff in some of each new generation, although some types of knowledge and thought get laid by the wayside or change in ways saddening to codgers like me.

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July 29, 2025

 

LEANING TOWARDS THE END

 

MR SOMEONE THINKS OF CABBAGES AND NOT CANNABIS

Animals, pets, children and spouses can sense the approaching demise of their Mr. Someone. When they do, it is a time of rationalization, stoicism, acceptance and reduced interest in the subject. Mr. Someone  becomes hazy and somewhat far away from sight and thought. A lower priority dimness.

He is always there. he does what he does everyday. nothing new. He does not talk of his health and well-being. Just says, "Fine." If someone should, for any reason, ask him his thoughts on any subject, he would probably respond, 'it is complicated" or "maybe" or "how terrible and senseless" and would stop there, leaving the elaboration to others. 

He does not like to listen much or converse. Looks at people and checks his meds at the dinner table.

He remembers a few acquaintances in Iznik, a grain wholesaler, an illiterate greengrocer, a very literate pharmacist, owner of a medium sized dime store, a dry goods store owner who supplied once a month a gypsy clan and a newpaper and magazine shop owner who sold lottery tickets, who had become a candidate for district mayor and lost. Some of them passed away and some just disappeared from his life. With visits to iznik becoming more difficult because of Summer heat, occupation of the house by children and grandchildren, and the schedule of the spouse, he also denied himself the physical therapy/massage by a friendly Russian lady married to a friendly Turkish odd-job man, and the emotional therapy of the three cats who never became picky with their affections towards me like humans. Occasionally, he worries about them but knows deep down that they will not be upset or too disappointed with his long absences.

He has stored his medals, cups, plaques of recognition and thanks, together with his favorite charms, which, he knows, never charmed anyone but himself when they were placed on the PC stand.

He still tries to find and concoct  new recipes for his meals, using exotic and standard herbs and spices which may not alway be good for his digestion, promising that he will soon lose some weight and the obese look he detests, but not so much. 

He buys online pajamas, underwear, comfortable lounge pants and shorts and V-neck and polo t-shirts, mostly orange, shades of green and blue, as well as supplements, shaving and hair cutting gear (for his new grown miraculous hair that almost covers all of the bald skull since December 2024)

Plays games against the computer and writes with a similar speed and ambition. 

His eyes get glassy, his mind becomes confused, and his head turns now and then, while his joints and legs try to tell him things he does not wish to hear but knows he must accept.

His family has been preparing for the soon to come day when he disappears, by nicely (they believe) ignoring him  and assuming his feelings and thoughts in a pleasant way. He doubts that not even his collections, books, poems, trophies, toys, charms and board games will miss him for long.

Ahmet cafer celebiler

July 26, 2025

MEMORABILIA

 

OPENING DERELICT BOXES

when life

as lived

was short

and horizons 

were far

one puts away memories

and

memorabilia

to laugh

to relive

not so far away

just  a few steps 

and a tiptoe reach

sad ones already discarded

decades gone by

boxes 

and contents

get unboxed

one hot day

in Summer of 

eighty first year

newspaper headlined faces 

in crowds of protester

entitled names among

members

attendees

speakers

mediators

other holders

of names

now 

almost

nameless

prescriptions 

from 1945 and 46 

somehow 

insinuated

their not so legible

presence 

into the box

of 

vagrant 

remembrances

without cause to remember

all very dusty

tattered

puerile

good for a fine sneeze

ahmet cafer celebiler

July 24, 2025

PERSONALITY STORAGE

 

SECRET STORAGE OF IDENTITIES

i keep notions

and

feelings

of

images

recollections

people i have met

beautiful people

all very human

they stay at the age I met

and stored

i age

they stay the same

for me

to reminisce 

and remove from the depths

as visions

as fading pictures

seldom within a landscape 

but

always a background

of emotion 

of appreciation

and delight

ephemerally avoiding droughts

i think

i should thank them 

and not forget

even the nameless

before i join them

in their storage

any storage

of people

humans 

who may not even have met me

IT IS GOOD TO KNOW YOU

ahmet cafer celebiler

July 22, 2025

WHAT WE WERE TAUGHT WHEN CHILDREN

 

TALES OF FOLKS AND FAIRIES AND THEIR MORALS

there are good and bad

kings, queens

animals

pets

step mothers sisters 

and other

petty persons

many tricksters

as dwarfs

witches

and wise men

and cats who wear boots

irish and continental

also

japanese

involved with poisons

and swords and bells

and birds

and caves responding to sesame

megalomaniacs

and giants

mythical

and commercial

hoarders

and consumers of flesh 

and freedoms

telling

and reminding

children and not children

of dangers

risks

hazards and perils

of the known

and the unknown

in so many copies

of just a few books 

pored over

by minds

conditioned

to soaking them up

only to spit at others

with or without meaning

preparing children

and grown ups

and their thoughts

and minds

for later days

still

without rhyme or reason

ahmet cafer celebiler

July 21, 2025

POWER OF HOPE AND DESIRE

 

WISHING FOR WISHES TO COME THROUGH

i am past 80

eser is almost 70

she is young

so am I

her specialties are babies and children

and also

healing

my interests are nonsense and logic

and also 

'why not?'

we tried

good wishes

and good things

leaving abundant

hope and desire 

to be fulfilled 

by other time crystals

not of our ken or kin

knowing

that

we will ever be young

to each other

and all

who see us 

as we are 

and saw us

as we were

she feels people

i feel mysteries

and 

we

 meet

people with mysteries

forgetting

our anxieties

still

despairing

for humanity

and 

cheering

the search

of Monsieur Sylvestre

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July 19,2025

CALL FOR STRUCTURING

 

REARRANGEMENT GONE AWRRY

there was a convocation

for 

a convention

resulting in

a magisterium

to reside

in one body

but 

pieces were missing

of thoughts

of

implements

of

vocabulary

and 

too many bits

 and even chunks

to fill in the gaps

completion was considered

with no consensus 

postponement 

was the final word

it was decided to 

convene at another

curvature of time and space

dependent on a mystical

or 

an uncertainly calculable

birth 

or

creation

of new beings

on a new landhold

with a different

mindhold

worthy

to fathom

examine

complete

and

indulge

ahmet cafer celebiler

July, 19, 2025

 

WORSHIPPERS  ON PARCHMENT AND STONE

CALLING FROM MINARETS AND BELFRY

belief is assumed

when 

the called one

is divine even

a trickster

following

songs

chants and

knells

glockenspiel

chimes 

gongs

or 

flute of a shepard

jarring awake

or

calling sleep

and sheep

exotic

esoteric

or

at times 

inscrutably erotic

serve

purposes

also

exotic

and esoteric

parts and portions

of mysteries

subject

of

cabals and covens

that 

may not be disclosed

except

by

ahmet celebiler

July 17, 2025

DIVERGING FROM ASKLEPIOS

 

RECOGNIZING THE CENTURY OF MEDICINE MEN

lucian knew

only one 

upstart

or start up

those thousands of years ago

when he 

wrote 

what he wrote

about alexander

the world knew

but

did not divulge

others

who followed glycon

all medicine men

in their own right

albeit with no degree

for many millenia

Our culture

beset by

our beliefs

in 

miracles

of technology

reared

the new breed

of

healers

and

good witches

warlocks

with university degrees

and

framed certificates

and

more importantly

machines

that light up

and machines

that go beep

subject to Hygieia

performing

performing

duties

of

Iaso

and panacea

and aceso

many miracles

not recorded

but

desired

wished

words of mouths

gnats living on

wishful thoughts

and dreams 

survivors

of hard times

and connivers 

of culpability

ahmet cafer celebiler

July 15, 2025

SLIDE PRESENTATIONS

 

A JOINT HISTORIC PROJECT TO BE SHARED

www.youtube.com/@esercelebiler

photographs mostly by Eser

words by Ahmet

music chosen mostly by Ahmet

PRENUPS, TRADE TREATIES, ASSETS AND LIABILITIES

 

COMMON LAW VS CIVIL LAW

deeper down

both mean the same

laws apply

to the common man

and civilians

or the weaker side

or group

or partner

or nation

even

in international organizations

and families

aristocratic

royal

and 

wealthy or destitute

trade treaties

international

and commercial

are like

prenups

until 

the promise

vaporizes

and the assets

if any 

are up for grabs

subject to

trust and trusts

glass ceilings

stockholm syndromes

Sigmund Freud and Nicola Machiavelli

even when

real princes do not exist

in the world

structured by power

and selfishness

and greed

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July 10, 2025

ME - ISM AND WE - ISM

 

CONFUSING INDIVIDUAL AND GROUP IDENTITY

i like this

we hate them

subjects

and objects

interchangeable

replaceable

contingent

racist or nationalistic

DNA tested 

and

ancestor guessed it

royally individual

never really plural

self knighted

rooked

with queens

imaginary

hoped for

by all the kings

as leaders

supposed spouses

spaces apart

contemporaneous

possibly 

simultaneous

anthropologically

possible

fictionally forgotten

subliminally apparent

sometimes scanned

other times

just propagandized

ever

singular and

first party plural

and subject

to Weber's law

ahmet cafer celebiler

July 7, 2025

YOUNG MEN'S INAPPROPRIATE SYMPTOMS

 

SECRET SINUS TACHICARDIA

juvenile males

experience

palpitations

dyspnea

dysphagia

drooling

dysautonomia

exophtalmos

more than they admit

in times of real

or imagined 

imminent sex

mature males

and

all females

are asymptomatic

as far as

spectators discern

except on visual media

AI

or

 professional crew

produced

calluses

of delicate senses

and walls

of indelicate passions

built over time

disrupt rays

and auras

and feelings 

gathering all

in 

murky depths

of the psyche

eminent physicians

comparing notes

argue to this day

if invasive

or noninvasive

techniques

are best suited

to cure these conditions

vying 

with shamans

witches

homeopaths

and

psychical 

and

physical

chiropractors

ahmet cafer celebiler

July 7, 2025

THOUGHT OF A DEPRESSIVE VIRUS ON A VIRAL SLIDE

PESSIMISM RULES THE DAY

(may be related to the news of demise of another classmate or millions of plant and animal lives lost in forest fires) 

 We are dupes.   Countries, governed by parliaments, senates, congresses, presidents, prime ministers, kings, dictators, chiefs, headmen and such are not ruled by people who do things out of the goodness of their hearts. they receive compensation as money, as status, as luxuries, as applause, as exceptional service for their families, a better grave or urn and the possibility of a few immemorable words on paper, stone, marble or screen.  They are accountable not to the public, not to inhabitants who voted for them and who support them, but to a small group of natives and foreigners who can play on their strings through money, gold, threats, blackmail, false promises and the ability to dupe them.

We have unknowingly and ignorantly, as a result of millenia of unjust, unfair life on this globe, signed a social contract with those earthly powers upon birth and were assigned and  reassigned roles at various points of our lives through the systems, cogs, wheels and whirligigs of education, careers, social, economic and political institutions.

We fight each other for the morsels thrown at us because we have no means to fight social contracts with impunity.

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July 5, 2025

TIME IS CONSTANT

 

DYSTOPIA BEGAN WITH LIFE

the first ever kvetch

was the autochtonic owner 

of an ingrown toe nail

not subject

to pity

or empathy

unaware of

auras negative

or 

perspectives furtive

secreted

in a cave 

self made

owner

and

distributor of 

moans common

grumbles human

not discerned 

by pets and peeves

even at a pity party

present 

and

indigenous

in and 

out of

black holes 

of minds

and thoughts

single

and 

plural

ahmet cafer celebiler

July 3, 2025